Tuesday, April 12, 2005

I'm engaged!!!

Yes, you read correctly. The lucky man is Matthew Paul Craig of the Craig household of Margate, Florida. He is so wonderful. We met in Orlando 5 years ago and have been friends since then. I just recently found out that Matt has been interested in marrying me for 3 years. We dated briefly in Orlando, but I was mostly interested in him as a friend and then he moved to South Florida over a year ago. He's been there for me through everything and seen me at my worst. We have so much in common regarding our beliefs and how we look at life and what we want, and we are also very different in many ways (including personality and how we like to accomplish things), but I think we compliment each other. Some of our close friends (ie. Heather and Mandy and Kerry that I know of) have been waiting for this to happen for years and are very happy for us. Some of our other friends from the church that we met at (used to be known as by "Cypress Church," now referred to as "H20.")like Mark, Andrew, Dave, Rami and others who we used to hang out with are probably very pleasantly surprised.

In recent news, Matt and I have joined a gym together and have been working out fairly consistently for the past 5 weeks. I am really enjoying this time we've set apart for both of us to get back into shape. Going to the gym forces my body to relax when I start to get stressed about work, finances, or life. Matt has recently gotten me interested in the Sci-fi show "Farscape," which I went out of my way to avoid before and occasionally I'll play video games with him (something I loathed and would never touch before). I also feel myself making more responsible decisions and thinking about how my actions affect not only myself, but others. I feel myself actually beginning to do things I've always wanted to do, but have been afraid to. Matt really has inspired me to put my thoughts and dreams into action. I now feel like I'm actually living.

Another great thing in my life is that I have not gone through a major depressive episode in several months despite the fact that I have not been taking any "happy pills." For those of you who don't know, I've struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. I truly believe that depression is a disease and I have asked for God to cure me of it. Whether He has healed me, or whether I have found effective ways to cope, I'm not sure of. I do know that I can live and I do not feel a cloud of despair over my head at all times threatening to consume me.This is wonderful!

Work is good...it's exciting and times and boring at others.When I think about what we prepare for...to make sure people are safe during wide-spread emergencies my work means something to me. Most of the time my work involved tedious administrative duties. But someone's gotta do it.

Well, I'm going to say Ta Ta for now. I'll write later when I get a chance. Thanks for listening (or reading, I should say).